I think I am going through a personal dilemma. How is it possible that one can be so disturbed about the future? Why does it have to be so complicated really? Am I not supposed to be a dreamy girl wanting to marry an apple farmer and lead a simple life? Ok, so apparently it is not so simple.
THE FUTURE. What am I going to do in the future? I am not even talking about what jobs or which companies to work for, who to marry, how many kids to have etc etc. All I am thinking of is really what do I want to do in life? The answer to that is quite a simple one. I just want to make a difference. I want my life to mean something. I want to do something meaningful with my life. For a while, I had thought that the psycho-path corporation can be countered with a phenomenon called 'Corporate Social Responsibility.' I had thought that with the business training, I could use those skills to better society, to make meaning out of my job. All is well until I learnt more about 'Social Responsibility Marketing.' Apparently, some statistics show that corporations spend 6x more advertising their commitment to the community than they really do actively in donation to the charities they advertised for. The staggering number just tossed me out for a bit...making me lose the slightest hope I had in businesses, in capitalism. So maybe not all corporations are out there to get ya, but the majority are. They are plainly painting a good corporate front to attract more investors and clients (yes, $$$). I mean, really, how many social enterprises exist out there? And by that I mean real enterprises committed to social and environmental issues with authentic goodwill. The answer is there is a scarcity of those enterprises. Some people suggested I work for an NGO or NPO, but again the truth is that non profit organizations are fast becoming "for profit" and beauracratic to the point that there is no accountability to donors on where the bucks really go.
Sorry for the rant, but my little bubble has been burst, and I am trying to find some hope, any hope at all that there is hope in the business world. Who knows, maybe I will wake up tomorrow feeling fine again, regain my confidence in the business world and able to jump right in to work my ass off for dividends that will only enrich the rich investors. I can only hope it will happen.
Gosh, why do I have to be so damn concerned about social issues? I wished I could just be a plain capitalist pig.
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
